why does a relationship between two people start and if it starts why does it end?
I am going thru the "I don't understand what is happening" syndrome and totally confused...
things go perfectly fine for years together...good and bad things are accepted and u learn to deal with them...in the process each individual also learns and grows for the better...and suddenly "SNAP" ... vacuum ... there is nothing more to talk about and nothing more to share ...
not that there is no action happening in either of the lives but still the vacuum does not allow any form of communication...who is responsible for this vacuum? and why does this vacuum form in the first place?
the bigger question is how to get rid of this vacuum? well...first of all do you want this vacuum to disappear or may be are we actually glad that his happened?
there was a time when one wanted the relationship to end but it does not happen thanks to the other person...and now the same person changes! so where does that leave us???
now i am thinking if i am thinking too much of the whole situation...is this my imagination? or is this a reality i am not willing to face right now?
time will only tell i guess...
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
25th Feb 09 - 8.45pm
Today has been quite a depressing day and the only good thing which happened is i found my mid school best freind vani...thanks to renuka,yamini and arthi...
Mom has undergone her 5th cycle of chemo today...and today i came across two doctors who are so amazingly opposite to each other and both in the same profession and sit beside each other in the same room...
my mom's doc is Dr.Senthyl - young,passionate about his profession and totally dedicated to his work. it is amazing how with the same amount of patience he meets hundreds of patients everyday...makes me think how sometimes professionals like us get upset and irritated at work - and our profession is nothing compared to what this doctor does - he is a true doctor !
And just beside him there is another senior doctor who is so rude to people! today by mistake my mom's file went to his table.He asked my mom what were the problems she faced during the last cycle and when we told her that she had vomitted quite a bit he says "I never told you to vomit!" - What kind of a reaction is this? I got pissed and told him what are u supposed to do when the body is throwing up...It is only becuase of Dr.Senthyl i kept my cool...he just looked at me and told me softly ignore him and he will check on my mom once again...what kind of human being is this doctor!!!how can he be so damn different from a man sitting right beside him in the same profession! I sweared that never by mistake also i will put my mom thru this doc...and i will deffinately give him a piece of mind once my mom is done with her treatment...this older doc is an insult to a doctor's profession!
To make matters worse it took longer than normal for mom to finish her treatement - and the poor thing was feeling sick,tired and had a headache by the end of it...and she was disturbed when she saw two little girls of around 13 years going thru the same treatment...and one girl who has been coming along with my mom for the last five cycles was so tired of the treatment - she was crying and yelling - she just did not want to go thru this anymore...i was sitting beside her and trying to console her...she was crying in pain...i had tears in my eyes looking at her...and made me think if i had to go thru something like this - would i really have the courage and strenght like all these little girls? why has god made diseases like this and over that make little children suffer? It is so damn unfair!!
Mom has undergone her 5th cycle of chemo today...and today i came across two doctors who are so amazingly opposite to each other and both in the same profession and sit beside each other in the same room...
my mom's doc is Dr.Senthyl - young,passionate about his profession and totally dedicated to his work. it is amazing how with the same amount of patience he meets hundreds of patients everyday...makes me think how sometimes professionals like us get upset and irritated at work - and our profession is nothing compared to what this doctor does - he is a true doctor !
And just beside him there is another senior doctor who is so rude to people! today by mistake my mom's file went to his table.He asked my mom what were the problems she faced during the last cycle and when we told her that she had vomitted quite a bit he says "I never told you to vomit!" - What kind of a reaction is this? I got pissed and told him what are u supposed to do when the body is throwing up...It is only becuase of Dr.Senthyl i kept my cool...he just looked at me and told me softly ignore him and he will check on my mom once again...what kind of human being is this doctor!!!how can he be so damn different from a man sitting right beside him in the same profession! I sweared that never by mistake also i will put my mom thru this doc...and i will deffinately give him a piece of mind once my mom is done with her treatment...this older doc is an insult to a doctor's profession!
To make matters worse it took longer than normal for mom to finish her treatement - and the poor thing was feeling sick,tired and had a headache by the end of it...and she was disturbed when she saw two little girls of around 13 years going thru the same treatment...and one girl who has been coming along with my mom for the last five cycles was so tired of the treatment - she was crying and yelling - she just did not want to go thru this anymore...i was sitting beside her and trying to console her...she was crying in pain...i had tears in my eyes looking at her...and made me think if i had to go thru something like this - would i really have the courage and strenght like all these little girls? why has god made diseases like this and over that make little children suffer? It is so damn unfair!!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
