October 27 2008

Finally all the reports were ready and doctors confirmed that mom had breast cancer and the tumour has to be operated ASAP...Doctors left the choice of tumour removal or entire breast removal to us...the toughest decision ever to be made...
After a debate between me and my sister we finally broke the news out to Mom that she has breast cancer and she has to be operated...the choice of tumour removal or breast removal was with her...She was completely shattered and terrified on knowing that she has cancer...She was upset and cried...It was difficult for all of us to console her and make her understand that this is not life threatning...
We took her back to the doctor who also counselled her and gave her the pros and cons of tumour removal and entire breast removal...But she was adamant that only the tumour has to be removed...
We took multiple opinions from different doctors - mumbai cancer hospital and a very senior oncologist here in hyd...all of them confirmed that the choice is with us but the final decision will be made by the doctors on the operation table...depending on what it looks like once the tumour is removed...
It was a painful one week after that as the date of surgery was fixed on 6th Nov...all these days my mother went through the agony of what the future holds for her...she started talking as if she is going to be alive for sometime only and telling us things on if she will ever see my youngest sister getting married or if she will see her second grand child etc etc...
This fear and pain can only be understand if you are going through it - but i also know that though she is terrified for the moment she is actually a very strong person from inside...We kept talking to her and giving her facts and case studies of so many other women who have been thru similar trauma and are fit and healthy now...But again...it is difficult to draw inspiration from all these case studies...difficult but not impossible...